Limitless Love

Over the years when I heard the term--unconditional love, I thought to myself with a huff and a sniff, what does that even mean?  I thought that there were always conditions. I really can't think of anyone who loved me unconditionally. As I write this, I think, maybe my dad, maybe my grandma.  At least it didn't seem like I had to do much to make them think I was wonderful and want the best for me. But, moms, husbands, friends, there were conditions when they loved me more and conditions when they didn't seem to love me at all.

That is what I am trying to leave along the trail and move on from, people who were supposed to love me and didn't love me very well.  I need to leave the feelings they gave me behind because they get in the way of my understanding of God's unconditional love for me.  When I focus on that, on how much God loves me, I have found peace and joy and serenity.  When I try to understand why a mother or a husband or a friend would treat me sometimes in mean or evil ways, then I get all twisted up in bad feelings and misery.  I need to leave their incomplete love behind me.

The reason for this is that I have people in my life that I want to shower with unconditional love.  Most especially, this new grandbaby has my love no matter what.  It is easy to do now while he is a perfect little one month old, and I hope just as easy if I am still alive while he is a restless teenager or a wandering young adult.

I have concluded that I need to be the love I want to receive.  I need to try to show that love in my heart to the friends, to the siblings, to the parents, children, and all people.  I need to be that love.  Limitless love, which only comes from God above, but can be echoed in my life if I allow it.