In sme ways I am a rock, a rock head, solid. In some ways I know right from wrong and up from down. I don't choose wrong, mostly. I struggle sometimes to figure out the right, but I seek help and I am getting better at that. And for a large portion of my life I thought that was enough. I just shouldn't do wrong. When faced with a dilema I did nothing. If I couldn't do nothing I ran or hid or tried to be invisible. And I tried to save people, to help whether they asked me or not.
I have concluded that there is nothing wrong with doing no wrong, but doing right is better. And doing right is not trying to save people from themselves or helping when I am not asked. Doing right is a little risky because there is less control of the situation. And to do right, I have to actually do something, not isolate, not be invisible.
But, it was lately called to my attention that God doesn't need me to try to fix the world and its people. I can't do it no matter how hard I try. I was given life to live. That is a concept, to live. To figure out what gives me joy and makes me whole. To be holy doing those things. I am called to love and joy not right or wrong. To joy. And I am seeking my joy.
I have concluded that there is nothing wrong with doing no wrong, but doing right is better. And doing right is not trying to save people from themselves or helping when I am not asked. Doing right is a little risky because there is less control of the situation. And to do right, I have to actually do something, not isolate, not be invisible.
But, it was lately called to my attention that God doesn't need me to try to fix the world and its people. I can't do it no matter how hard I try. I was given life to live. That is a concept, to live. To figure out what gives me joy and makes me whole. To be holy doing those things. I am called to love and joy not right or wrong. To joy. And I am seeking my joy.