So, I woke up on the first and coldest day of the new year to very little heat. Temperatures had gotten into the minuses overnight and the furnace would not go above 65. I didn't panic, I hunkered down, canceled my plans, called the repair service and waited until Tuesday to get the furnace running properly. I had time to consider....
This truly is the beginning of my new year, new life. I am not in a rental, I have finshed changing my name, I am planning a trip and planning for a grandbaby, my journey is less on winding rocky ground. Everything isn't smooth, in this world there will be troubles....I have an eye problem that will require surgery.....things like the pesky furnace.....
But, I was talking to someone on new years' day who told me, I can tell that you needed to be out of your marriage, because you are happier and like your old self. In short, I am not anxious, fearful, sad, and lonely. For the first time in a long time, I am happy.
I remember when I once thought, if I play by the rules and follow the commands, then my life will be as happy and productive as God intended it to be. And I tried and tried and tried. And that is the thing, I tried. God led me other places, in other ways, and I refused to listen, I refused to consider, I held tight to what I thought was right.
For me, when I listened to the priests, deacons, spiritual advisers, counselors, friends, family members and God's voice in my prayer who all urged me to consider a different path, I started to find joy and happiness. I started to find who I was created to be. At first, I didn't want it to be true, But, as I walked the path, it became clearer and clearer that to be whole and holy I had to step off the path and lsiten to God, to journey in trust, to look for joy and happiness and not rules and fear.
This year holds the usual amount of joy and tears. This year I walk with God and work only for His will for my life. This year is full of possibilities. Happy, happy New Year.
This truly is the beginning of my new year, new life. I am not in a rental, I have finshed changing my name, I am planning a trip and planning for a grandbaby, my journey is less on winding rocky ground. Everything isn't smooth, in this world there will be troubles....I have an eye problem that will require surgery.....things like the pesky furnace.....
But, I was talking to someone on new years' day who told me, I can tell that you needed to be out of your marriage, because you are happier and like your old self. In short, I am not anxious, fearful, sad, and lonely. For the first time in a long time, I am happy.
I remember when I once thought, if I play by the rules and follow the commands, then my life will be as happy and productive as God intended it to be. And I tried and tried and tried. And that is the thing, I tried. God led me other places, in other ways, and I refused to listen, I refused to consider, I held tight to what I thought was right.
For me, when I listened to the priests, deacons, spiritual advisers, counselors, friends, family members and God's voice in my prayer who all urged me to consider a different path, I started to find joy and happiness. I started to find who I was created to be. At first, I didn't want it to be true, But, as I walked the path, it became clearer and clearer that to be whole and holy I had to step off the path and lsiten to God, to journey in trust, to look for joy and happiness and not rules and fear.
This year holds the usual amount of joy and tears. This year I walk with God and work only for His will for my life. This year is full of possibilities. Happy, happy New Year.